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A Former Jehovah’s Witness Insider Who Was an Eyewitness to Deceit

Barbara Anderson was a member of Jehovah's Witnesses from 1954 to 1997. She worked at Watchtower's headquarters in Brooklyn, NY, from 1982 to 1992 where during her last three years there, she researched the movement's official history (published in 1993) and did research as well as wrote a number of articles for their Awake! magazine. She has done extensive research on issues related to child sexual abuse in the religion leading to interviews on major TV and radio programs as an outspoken critic of Jehovah's Witnesses sexual abuse policies.

Life Altering Choice

I was born in Long Island, New York in 1940 to Polish Catholic parents. When I was an inexperienced, discontented fourteen-year old, I made a choice that for the next forty-four years of my life would narrow my opportunities to make choices—I joined one of the most aggressive, controversial religious groups, Jehovah’s Witnesses, which became the center of my life. I put aside my heart’s desire, the study of archeology, because of the religion’s ban on higher education for their members. Hence, evangelistic activities took priority over education. I heeded their rules as to choice of friends, only Jehovah’s Witnesses, and choice of a marriage mate, only one of Jehovah’s Witnesses. (read whole story)

Fade From the Truth:

A Tale of Learning then Unlearning the Beliefs of Jehovah's Witnesses

by Alan Miller


This is the story of my lifelong spiritual journey so far without all the confusing religious doctrines included. My story is true, but some of the fine details have been changed to maintain my personal anonymity. My name is not Alan Miller; I did not grow up in the wonderful city of St. Louis necessarily. Some names and occupations have been changed for the same reason. It doesn't affect the story whatsoever.

Without trying to sound paranoid, allow me to explain my predicament. I started writing my autobiography for personal therapy. I said that I would never publish this as it would cause my mother to feel the need to permanently shun me. But as I developed my story, I thought that even if I helped one other person avoid some pitfalls, I wanted to share the story.

So what's so terrible that my mother would never speak to me for the rest of her life? Absolutely nothing. But I and my mother belong to the religion known as Jehovah's Witnesses. Once you become a member of that religion, you are never allowed to disagree with their doctrines ever again. If you do disagree with anything and you cannot keep it to yourself, then the men in power within the religion will kick you out. If you ever quit or are kicked out of the Jehovah's Witnesses, all the other Witnesses are commanded to never speak to you again. While I am not sure that my mother will obey that command, I am not prepared to take that chance.

Even though the fine details are changed, any of the Jehovah's Witnesses that know me well would fully recognize this as my story after a chapter or two. But no faithful believing Jehovah's Witnesses would be allowed to read this book. It would be another one of those commands they all have to obey. The penalty for disobedience is the same as the one for disagreement with the doctrines, being kicked out of the religion and facing total shunning from Witness family and friends.

I technically still belong to the religion, but just so my mother is allowed to speak to me. My wife is also a practicing Jehovah's Witness. (Spouses are not commanded to shun a mate who leaves the religion- one small break.) There are perhaps millions of people in a similar situation as mine. They don't want to lose contact with their parent or grandparent or adult child or grandchild. I am currently what they call an "inactive" Jehovah's Witness. I don't participate in their religion in any way. They call it inactive, but many former Jehovah's Witnesses say that what I am is a "fader". Instead of quitting the religion, I simply faded from activity.

This is not a "how-to-fade" book. I thought of writing that book, but the Watch Tower organization can easily change the rules if such a book were to find some success. This is not a book about doctrines. Some are mentioned here, but no scriptures are used to prove, disprove, or even suggest beliefs.

Some readers may know nothing about Jehovah's Witnesses. I have done my best to explain things so that they can follow along. If you become curious about Jehovah's Witnesses after reading my story, you should know that all visitors are welcome at their Kingdom Hall for any of their meetings. No collections are taken; they just ask you to leave your brain at the door.

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Jehovah's Witnesses, Hells Angels, Serial Killers, Dissociative Identity Disorder and a 14-year-old Run-Away
Introducing ADELE, ET AL., the unthinkable new memoir of Adele R. Fors on

With alarming detail, Adele R. Fors reveals the complex internal architecture of this well-known religious movement that allows for the systematic control and regulation of devotees, including her own family members.

Victoria, BC (PRWEB) August 21, 2012

Adele R. Fors is a 4th-generation Jehovah's Witness and the ex-communicated daughter/grand-daughter of two of the most revered church leaders within the secretive Jehovah's Witness sect today.

ADELE, ET AL.: Jehovah's Witnesses, Hells Angels, Serial Killers, Dissociative Identity Disorder and a 14-year-old Run-Away is the author's response to the crippling experience she says began with the Jehovah's Witnesses in 1983 and continues to this day.

The victim of a sexual assault by a complete stranger at the age of 13, she writes that she was disfellowshipped the following year for having a defiant attitude and ostracized from her entire family system--though she was not a baptized member. Her young life quickly fell into wide-spread disarray and dysfunction as depression and mental illness, addiction and abusive relationships became her tragic way of life.

Three decades later, she is diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder (a severe and persistent psychiatric disorder) while facing her second divorce and second bankruptcy. A workplace assault in 2009 sets the stage for a long, debilitating fight for compensation and rights until, finally, she receives official designation as a Person with a Disability. Since that time, she has struggled daily to regain her grasp on life and to complete her memoir, a story she will fight to tell.

With alarming detail, Adele R. Fors reveals the complex internal architecture of this well-known religious movement that allows for the systematic control and regulation of devotees, including her own family members.

Through her own devastating experience, Adele R. Fors hopes to bring clarity, awareness and understanding to the unfolding crisis of trust being experienced by the world-wide association of Jehovah's Witnesses as they face their first defeat in a court of law for failure to adequately protect a child sex abuse victim from continued attacks at the hands of her abuser, a sex offender-known to congregation elders and a member in good-standing within the North Fremont, California, USA congregation between 1995/96 (see Superior Court of California, County of Alameda, USA, Jury Verdict: HG115588324, Date: 06/13/2012).

A website in support of this book and the work of the author is now LIVE. You are invited to visit for an unforgettable experience.

ADELE, ET AL. is available today at SMASHWORDS.COM

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Adele R. Fors
Victoria, BC Canada
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Email: adelerubyfors(at)gmail(dot)com

Please contact the writer for a complimentary review copy.

Adele R. Fors welcomes the opportunity to discuss her new memoir, Adele, et al. and to talk about her experiences inside and outside of the Jehovah's Witnesses and the Watchtower Bible and Tract Society.

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